I like the way the stretch marks
on my thighs look human and
that we’re soft yet
rough and jungle wild
when we need to be
I love that about us
how capable we are of feeling
how unafraid we are of breaking
and tend to our wounds with grace
just being a woman
makes me utterly whole
Starting today’s blog post with a self-love quote by one of my favorite poets Rupi Kaur. If you read ten things you didn’t know about me on my Instagram feed, you already know how I feel about posting this photos anywhere. This is by far most naked post I have ever dared to post, literally and metaphorically.
I was always super skinny; I never had any muscles… You probably think well cry me a freaking river woman! I never gained weight until my puberty, but I haven’t gained a lot because I received a gift from Universe and that’s chronic thyroid disease (just to be clear, that universe and gift thing was sarcastic), so I remained skinny with a whole lot of body fat and hormonal ups and downs. In terminology that’s called skinny-fat, I’m not kidding. That means your body has a higher percentage of fat than muscles. There are no athletes in my family so inheriting just a few percent of a muscle wasn’t going to happen for me. People tend to look at me and say thing like:’’ Oh my God, how can you say you’re not happy with your body, you’re so skinny?’’ It’s funny, isn’t it? How we tend to be self-critical all the time!! It’s exhausting! I managed to pull myself together and started working out in February when I hit my rock bottom with self-pity. I wasn’t in a good place back then but somehow exercising helped me to become tougher and even more organized if that’s even possible.
I don’t know why publishing this photos took a lot of courage for me. I think it has a little bit to do with how I think people will react. Society tends to shut us up every time we try to say something nice about ourselves! ‘’Don’t talk about yourself, it’s so egoistic!’’ or ‘’ don’t praise yourself, it’s pathetic!’’ Why do we always find the right words to praise others, which I think is beautiful but we never find just the right words to be kind to ourselves? We live in a world when it’s only acceptable to talk nice things about others and not ourselves because it automatically portrays as being self-centered!
Well, today, I don’t care about society and about what other people will have to say about this post, today I feel beautiful, tough and confident in my own body. As Emery Allen said, I’m a Goddess and so are you!! No matter what shape or size.?